When we chose the name Ezra we had no idea what meaning it would hold. His name means "help from God". His little life truly has pointed us back to the Lord in ways we did not realize we were lacking.
My sweet baby boy, Ezra Shepherd Sweat, unexpectedly went to be with Jesus on December 2nd, 2012. I was 37 weeks along in a perfect pregnancy when my placenta completely tore away from my uterine wall, leaving Ezra with no life supply. I found out that he was gone in the midst of intense labor and I went on to deliver him. I ended up becoming very sick with all the blood loss and needed four blood transfusions, but it allowed us to be in the hospital longer and we were able to enjoy two wonderful days with our Ezra.
He was perfect.
He is perfect.
I knew that he wasn't really there, but a mother’s heart just doesn't know how to stop loving. Leaving the hospital was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Watching the casket being lowered into the ground and watching in slow motion as the dirt began to cover his tiny casket being another. My husband and I are devastated, but by the grace of our Lord we have been able to cling to Him. We have a 22 month old son, Levi, who keeps me going each day. He doesn't understand what has happened and his innocent love and laughter has been balm to my broken heart. This is such a hard road to be on right now, but we have truly taken joy that this is not the end and the best is yet to come. We will have heaven with our Lord and our precious baby boy! My heart is struggling to believe that each day as I plead with God to help me put one foot in front of the other.
“My heart trusts in Him and I am helped.” –Psalm 28:7
Ezra Shepherd Sweat
He is our help from God,
shepherding us home,
pointing us toward eternity.